CT scan

Yesterday was a very stressful day. Everything was going very well. I had my last pre-op appointment with my surgeon. I seem to have connected well with him and we were having a nice conversation about the surgery then the dreaded finger point happened. The "one moment" finger. He needed to read something more thoroughly from my test results. There was a little something wrong with my abdominal sonogram. Apparently I have two lesions on the left lobe of my liver. He and I started a mad dash to get me into a radiologist as soon as possible. I spent the rest of the day trying to schedule a CT scan for today. It had to be today, because we are expecting a major snow storm and I knew Monday was going to be a disaster. So, after fighting with the radiology book keepers I finally got it all approved. I went and picked up a LITER of barium and was set for the CT today.

After I finally had a few seconds to sit and relax...it hit me. There might be something wrong with my liver. Wow. It could be one of a hundred things, but then it could be the worst case scenario. What's next? What do I do if there is something wrong? How do we handle this? I mean, I know we handle is one day at a time. But wow. That's a tough one. It's not the first time the "C" word has been a possibility in my life. Back 14 years ago I had a bit of a scare with a benign tumor in one of my breast, but even having gone through that whole experience doesn't make this any easier.

So, today I wake up and start chugging. UGH. I fought constantly to not vomit. I had woken up at 5:30 with reflux again and nothing I did would ease it completely. So I was still fighting a bit of reflux and drinking a liter or barium. Not my best morning. I finally got it all down and left for the radiologist. I made it there and they were able to take me in a bit earlier than I was scheduled (Thank you God!) and I was able to get back home so that John could make it to work.

We are hoping the CT will show it's nothing and the surgery will go on as scheduled, but if it is something I guess we have to figure out what plan "B" is. Boo hisss....to plan "B"!

It started snowing in the middle of my appointment and has come down steadily since then. There is such a relaxing quality to snow. I love watching it fall. I don't like driving in it, but I love to watch it fall.


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Lord, I don't ask much very often, but I do have a small request. Please let this be nothing. Just a little blip, nothing to worry about. Let's get on with the surgery and on with life. Thank you. Love, shan